[][]snow 05:54

in the morning...i wished upon the sky ... please let me sleep again and tell those trains not to work.

but the wish didn't come

i went to a company which provides 3day-internship from 12:40 to 18:30 every sunday. i was so afraid to go there since i had no confidence to communicate with people coming there. but actually there were many nice people whom i can feel some kind of sympathy.

one girl is a sub-desk of a freepaper handed to many places in the world. i was so excited but i also felt madcap is okay since they are so different. i didn't jaelous(?).

the other girl has been to Sweden for 2months, and she was in the elementary school there. she studied with swedish boys&girls in real. it's just so cool. i asked her to bring some pics took in the school. also she was talking pics of gothic-lolita-girls as her side-job


[]i'd love to love someone 00:36

but it doesn't matter who he is.

i think i need someone who i can really trust and rely on. i have so many mentors and i appreciate the fact. but still it is so hard for me to do many tasks without sayign any magic words not through the display but through the voice. i wanna talk to someone who is honest and have a big heart. i don't know who he/she is. it is so easy to say you should meet new people but it's not that much easy for me. if it's possibe, i'd like to live in my bedroom and eat all day long.


[]ugg 22:54

it was painful that i gotta go to the gift center to return some samples that are supposed to returned much much earlier. and the person who said "should be back in few weeks" was me ----- and it was a lie, we wanted to keep them as long as we could. my stomach shrinked when lori told me that they called us with nasty words!! since they will have a market this weekend they really need to have them. but from my point of view, i would say we should determine how much do we want to keep them when we ask them to borrow! and if they have sth inportant (eg. market) we can return them only that time. It is a huge loss that the wholesaler doesn't have a sample but since we have decided to have their products they could be nicer - like melissa or alline!(they allowed us to keep them and they ordered samples for them) boo.

also i went to the bookstore @ southcenter and i felt that my english is worse than before... and less careful again! i could have asked her to discount one book which is damaged but i didn't! and where all the samples gone!?!?!?

pretty stressful day - just cuz of me.


[] 00:28

スイトピー = sweet pea


[]んー 07:57